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Posted by: KIYAN REMINGTON Jun 1 2018, 09:23 PM
The call had just come through and all he could do was stare at his daughter with tears threatening to fall from his eyes. Toi was gunned down during a run and was dead. Now Thyme only had her father and "his good friend" Blue to count on. Licking his lip,s he watched the girl play on the living room floor. Fear gripping him. He didn't know how to tell her. How do you tell a two year old her mother was dead? How do you tell a child that they lost a parent? He immediately texted Blue and let him know what was going on, now he was waiting for the man to come to his condo.

Posted by: BLUE BARNES Jun 2 2018, 06:24 AM
Blue had taken up two summer courses, so that's what he was working on when he got the call from Kiyan. In a way, he hoped this was some poorly executed joke but the deep sadness in Kiyan's voice is something he would never forget. He packed his book bag and rushed over to the house. If Toi really did pass away, he knew he was in for a world of cheering up, he didn't mind but still it was a lot to deal with. He let himself in with the spare key and then walked over to the couch with him, after dropping his book bag on the floor. "It's okay." Blue assured, wiping away the other man's tears. "Everything is gonna be alright." .


Posted by: KIYAN REMINGTON Jun 2 2018, 10:51 AM
Kiyan was gone mentally. He never noticied Blue come in the door, but Thyme did. The little girl smiled and jumped up, running over to the couch. "Blue!" Throwing her little arms around Blue's neck, she didn't have any idea of what was really going on. She knew her father was being distant but her young mind didn't understand. Looking over, Kiyan sniffled and nodded his head, broken out of his trance by Thyme. He allowed Blue to wipe the tears that threatened to fall then picked up Thyme and kissed the girl's forehead. "Me and Blue have to talk so go to your room." He set Thyme down and watched as she went to her bedroom. Once she was gone, Kiyan took a deep breath. "How am I gonna tell her Blue? She just gained both of her parents and now her mother is dead."Thyme had a bad hand so far in life. Kiyan was more devastated for his daughter than he was for himself.

Posted by: BLUE BARNES Jun 3 2018, 01:04 AM
Usually, Blue would stop and play with her. Scoop her up at the very least but he had to make sure Kiyan was okay. He had just lost the mother of his daughter, that was pretty big too. "I'll be right up." he promised her as he looked towards the other adult. He sighed, mainly because there was no easy way to tell her. Just like there was no easy way to tell him when he was a young child and his mother passed away. "She's young, so you don't need to be so transparent with her. Just tell her that Mommy is gone to a better place and is watching over her all the time." Blue was rubbing Kiyan's back now. "Tell her that Toi is her angel."

Posted by: KIYAN REMINGTON Jun 3 2018, 01:05 PM
The feeling of Blue hand on his back caused a tear to escape and fall from his eye. He quickly wiped his face, hating to cry in front of people. Setting his hand on Blue knee he squeezed lightly as he thought about Toi. Their last encounter they argued a little and had sex. He never told Blue and this wasn’t the time to. He felt that Toi was gone too soon. He had just got her back. He was crushed lowkey. ”I’m just not ready to tell her. Like I don’t know if she gonna understand. She so young.” biting on his bottom lip he shook his head. ”she just got both her parents after being in the system all her life. Now she lost one.” his heart broke for his daughter more than anything.

Posted by: BLUE BARNES Jun 3 2018, 05:02 PM
Blue had run out of advice just that fast. He didn't know how to answer him. It was so unfortunate for little Thyme to lose her Mom so early in her life. She would have little to no memories and that sucked. He sighed, immediately thought of his brother Tim and then felt even sadder for her now. At times he thought Tim's as well as his own anger came from the lack of their mother. "i'll be here to help you as much as I can." he told him while looking at him. Blue was only 19, and he was in between jobs. But he would help Kiyan as much as possible, he would love Thyme because Kiyan did. "I'm not gonna replace her mother or anything but I'll help you."

Posted by: KIYAN REMINGTON Jun 13 2018, 08:52 AM
Kiyan was trapped in his guilt. Regrets of not trying harder to be there for Toi while she was locked up even though deep down he knew he tried as hard as he could. Regrets of not tying to convince her to leave the street life alone and setting her up with a lifestyle that he paid for himself. Maybe she would have still been there. Looking at Blue he raised his eyebrows at the man statement. ”Seriously?” it was hard for Kiyan to believe that Blue wanted to help especially after he was so against the idea of Thyme from the beginning. Shaking his head slightly, he stared into the man’s eyes to see if he was being honest or not. ”If you commit to that you have to be serious about it. You can’t throw tantrums and storm out whenever the fuck you feel like it. Not when there is a child involved. If you in this you in it for life. I don’t need my daughter losing anything else and imma protect her from that by all means possible.” his face was straight and emotionless but his eyes held a sliver of madness behind them. If blue decides to be there and help raise Thyme he had to be there by all means. Regardless of what happened between him and Kiyan.

Posted by: BLUE BARNES Jun 13 2018, 10:28 AM
"Yeah, seriously. I was just a little bit older than Thyme when I loss my mom and it wasn't easy on my dad. He had to do it all alone, and that's not fair to him and wouldn't be fair to you. Plus, I love Thyme even though she eats all my snacks." it took Blue a little while to get over her eating his snacks. She's an actual baby and Blue's a big spoiled baby but after a while it got going. "Well, if we're being honest. I may still throw a tantrum. I may just leave, I may get upset with you. That'll never change. But I won't do it when Thyme is present and I won't exclude her out my life even when we're going through our stages when we're not talking or seeing eye to eye."

Posted by: KIYAN REMINGTON Jun 13 2018, 10:52 AM
He chuckled and playfully mushed Blue head. The man wa so childish that it was borderline adorable sometimes. ”grow the fuck up. I’ll get you more snacks.” he smirked and allowed his hand to rest on the back of Blue neck as his gripped it lightly. ”Thank you though. Really. I really appreciate you being willing to step in and step up. One fuck up though and that’s it. Even if you hurt me..don’t ever hurt my daughter.” he stared into Blue eyes before taking a deep breath and letting go of the man’s neck. ”You said you wanted a family with me and you got it...” letting his head fall back against the couch, he stared up at the ceiling. ”Guess God really do work in mysterious ways.” turning to glance at Blue he playfully mugged him. ”Do a good enough job and prove to me that you in this for life and I’ll even change add Barnes to her last name.” Kiyan had to be sure before he went that far. He only hopes the young man knew what he was getting into. Parenting was hard. Coparenting was even harder.

Posted by: BLUE BARNES Jun 13 2018, 11:18 AM
"I will never hurt her." Blue wouldn't. He was way too family oriented to even think of that. He had a shit ton of siblings, and they had kids, and not to mention all the babying of his younger brother he did, and still does sometimes. Blue loves to love, and he loves to be family. "You don't got nothing to worry about, I promise." he laid on the guy's shirtless stomach and looked at him. "Okay, but when can all three of us have the same last name?" he asked him, smiling a bit. Blue never considered marriage until Kiyan came along. Then the idea of spending the rest of his life with someone finally seemed realistic to him. "Hmmm?" he wiggled his eyebrows.

Posted by: KIYAN REMINGTON Jun 13 2018, 12:22 PM
He believed Blue would never hurt Thyme. Still as a father he couldn’t help but to be overprotective. Thyme was his whole world. And he would defend her with his life. Blue hurting him however was another story. The man did it once before and Kiyan felt it was bound to happen again eventually. As long as his daughter wasn’t caught in the crossfire, he was good. When Blue laid on his chest, he placed an arm around the younger male and placed his other one behind his neck to support his head. Eyes on the ceiling, he couldn’t stop thinking about Toi but Blue question caused him to blink a couple times. Lifting his head he looked down at Blue in shock. ”You serious?” Kiyan had thought about marriage and Blue being the one he spent his life with. ”I don’t think you’re ready for that. You got a lot of growing and maturing to do. When that happens then we can discuss it.” Kiyan was a very realistic person. Blue was still young and learning his way through life. He didn’t think the younger male was ready for marriage no matter how appealing the idea was.

Posted by: BLUE BARNES Jun 13 2018, 03:17 PM
"I'm so serious." he told him while he continued to lay on him. Despite all the mishaps the two of them had, Blue didn't know if there was anybody else out here for him. He wanted Kiyan. It was a rocky road but it was worth it. "Why can't we discuss it now? I'll be a good husband I think." he certainly loved him enough , and that would never change and he didn't think anything else was necessary, but whatever else he wanted from him he would do it. "Don't you love me?" he pouted while talking to him and took his hand in his hand. "You should marry me." he was idly playing with Kiyan's hands as he spoke and avoided eye contact.

Posted by: KIYAN REMINGTON Jun 13 2018, 03:40 PM
Taking a deep breath he closed his eyes as he listened to Blue. He loved the man. He was in love with the man. He personally didn’t feel Blue was ready for marriage. Blue was young and wild and free. Hell the man already had cheated on him with multiple people. Who was to say that wouldn’t happen again? ”You think you’ll be a good husband? Marriage is about knowing you can not thinking. Marriage is a huge commitment. It takes a lot of work.” Kiyan had never been married before but he knew from watching his parents that it wasn’t easy. Frowning at his question he opened his eyes and looked at him. ”Of course I do Blue.” he could see himself one day marrying the man but he felt Blue needed to live his life first. ”I want to marry you one day. You are still so young and have so much to learn and explore. You cheated because you felt caged. You had just came out and wanted to explore. I get that now even though it wasn’t right. Take this time and do just that. Just always be honest with me and I’ll do the same.” whoever Kiyan married would be the one and only. He didn’t want to take that jump just to end in divorce. ”Hell you might meet someone and they make you question whether you truly ever loved me at all.” he used his free hand to play in Blue hair while Blue idly played with his other hand. ”if you still feel the same in a few years and can show me how serious you are then we can revisit this conversation.”

Posted by: BLUE BARNES Jun 13 2018, 04:03 PM
He pouted and then looked at him. "Okayy." Blue didn't think there would be anybody who could come and make him feel like this love wasn't real. "Can I have a kiss now then." he pouted and then leaned up and to kiss his lip and then playfully sucked on the side of his mouth. "I love you." he told him while cuddling up with him. "Nowww, get off of me so I can study." he told him, going to sit up..

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