I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I'm awake, you know?
– Ernest Hemingway.
Born in Ashwick, California, Tony was raised in a small family of 4; Tony being the second oldest. Tony was a very outgoing one. He was never afraid to make conversation with anyone, not even strangers (but of course, his parents had to be around to observe him talking to strangers). Things were so easier being a child for him. He didn’t have to do nothing except go to school, come home to do his chores, eat, homework, and get ready for the bed. It was just that damn easy. He’ll give anything to go back to those days. He was a good kid in the beginning stages, but he began to stray off track when he started to hang around the wrong kind of kids. These kids were bad influencing, and never supported him with nothing. They could get in trouble and blame Tony for being the reason for it all, making him get in trouble instead of them. They were the worst kind of friends. Still, as stupid as he was, he continued to hang out with them and grow accustom to their ways. He really didn’t start to learn from his mistakes until he turned 13. After that, he started to tone up his ways (thanks to his mother) and learn from every single trial he had to go through in his life. He wanted to be a better person for a change. Could he keep to that? Not really.
With a mixture of his bad ways, along with his father’s military enforcing, it was just something that Tony grew accustomed with. He really enjoys bossing people around and having authority over those lower to him, because it makes him feel superior in a way. It’s one of the main reasons why Tony doesn’t need any kind of power – he lets it go straight to his head, instead of using his power in a positive way to keep people motivated and happy. His father kept him in check multiple times. At the age of 19, it happened to have been one of the most active times of his life. His current girlfriend at the time was pregnant with his child, and his mother was lying on her deathbed. He spent more time with his mother than he did with his girlfriend. He was with his mother all the way until she had passed away. With stress and depression wearing on his nerves, Tony couldn’t focus for shit on his personal life. Things were so hard for him. And if it wasn’t for his father, there was no telling where he’d be – but to take a wild guess, he could have been six feet under somewhere.
As his life went through more hard times after the death of his father, it was his child that was giving him the reason to keep breathing. He was doing all he could to provide for the child, but on the inside he could feel everything in his life just shattering apart. He just felt broken. But on the outside, he did his best to make it seem like everything was perfect – even if it meant having to show some of his father’s ways to cover it.
I never had a speech from my father 'this is what you must do or shouldn't do' but I just learned to be led by example. My father wasn't perfect
. – Adam Sandler
His relationship with his father wasn’t the best, but it wasn’t the worst either. Tony was raised through “tough love” and to never give up on his dreams, and his father was the cause for those two things being embedded into his mind. His father was a retired soldier. He’s been in the military for years. He has seen what there is to see, watched his friends die, killed people, and the near-death experiences he nearly endured. His father was a great man—an asshole at times, but it was his way of communicating with others. He’s big on the whole “tough love”.
In his world, he has this idea where people are being too easy on their children nowadays, and for that, it’s the reason why these kids are running amuck in these towns. But Tony? Hell no, he wasn’t going to let his son be one of those teenagers running amuck in town. He’ll pull out a belt so quick on his behind if he heard anything bad about Tony’s doings--and if not a belt, he’ll go into pulling out the military punishments to teach the teen a valuable lesson. He wasn’t perfect, and that was probably one of the things that Tony admired the most about his father. He was a great role model to Tony during his younger years. However, he’s not going to lie – he used to have some difficulty communicating with his father every once in a while, because his father was so opinionated and loved to turn something small into a big debate. It could be funny, but it gets annoying after a while.
At the age of 25, his father passed away. The cause of death was a heart attack. Tony has several things in his possession to remind him of his father. He has a cross necklace that he wears damn near everything around his neck, a picture of his father in his military suit in his wallet, and a heirloom rifle from one of his great grandfathers, on his dad’s side, that he usually keeps in the trunk of his truck.
Don't let people disrespect you. My mom says don't open the door to the devil. Surround yourself with positive people.
– Cuba Gooding Jr.
Behind every strong, bravery man, there’s always that one strong woman that holds them together – and not only just the man, but the family as well. That woman happened to have been his mother. His mother did all she could to raise and teach her children the right between the wrong. Her approach to her kids was more sensitive and forgiving, whereas Tony’s father had more of that threatening and intimidating approach. His mother kept his father in his place. If his father began to raise his tone, she’s right there to make him lower his tone. If his father were to spank his kids for pissing him off, she’s right there to put a stop to his madness. No matter what his father tried to do, especially if he’s in the wrong, she’s right there to correct his wrongs and keep his head calm. His mother was the best. Tony couldn’t have asked for a better mom in her.
Tony was a troubling teen when he was younger. He used to stay in some kind of trouble. While his other siblings would receive good grades in school and good reports from his teachers, Tony was the one that received more call-homes, bad reports, and his teachers not having absolutely nothing to say about him. Other than his father’s constant whooping and punishments, it was really his mother that would always sit down and talk to him one-on-one to try and get an understanding to his behavior. His mother was so open-minded to everything and anything, even willing to put herself in the shoes of others to get an idea on what they could be experiencing to get a better understanding. His mother was a professional at reverse psychology. Her reverse psychology would always get the better of Tony, no matter what he tries to say to counter or avoid it. His mother was good at it. Damn good. His mother did everything she could for Tony. But at the end of the day, she knew he'll have to learn from his own mistakes in order to understand how life works.
At the age of 19, his mother had passed away. The cause of death was cancer. Tony only has one possession of hers to remind him of her. He has a silver ring that he wears every once in a while. There are times when he may refuse to wear the ring because he doesn’t want to deal with the memories of her. Not in a bad way, he can just a little bit emotional. He doesn’t like no one seeing him like that.
It is much easier to become a father than to be one.
De'Andre Reed is Tony’s only child.
“I fucked up” was a constant reminder he kept telling himself when he was told that he was going to be a father. How did he mess up? In his mindset, he thought he’d sex with a condom when they did what they did. Did it break? Did it come off? Or did he just simply forget? He couldn’t put his figure it out even though he’d spent a whole 6 months in delusion that he used a condom and it couldn’t have been his. His mother was the one that spent time with him trying to help Tony wrap his mind about the fact that he was going to be a father, while his father told him to just “man up and take responsibility”. His father wasn’t one for compassionate. There was no black and gray area with him. His father and mother had taught him a lot of life lessons, but nothing to prepare him for what the future held in this new life that was being brought upon him.
When Dre turned one, the mother bailed out of his life during his birthday party. Tony was stuck having to raise a child all by himself while trying to maintain his own life as well. He wanted to keep following his dream of being a cop someday. With that motivation in mind, like his father would say: he had to do what he had to do. Raising a child by himself was rather stressful. He didn’t have time to hang out with friend, do his hobbies, spent time to himself, or do absolutely nothing – his life consisted of taking care of the baby and shooting for his own dreams. The stress was becoming overwhelming to the point that he had to rely on alcohol to pull him back to reality. There were times it helped and times it made him show tons of aggressive in him. He was able to control it at first, but it started to get worse to the point that he began to take it out on De’Andre and others around him…. Frequently. The alcohol and the stress only came together to make his mood worse than better, doing the opposite of what he’d thought it’ll do. Now that he was addicted to it, he has a hard time trying to cut back from it.
Thankfully, his baby mother’s aunt assisted in helping raise Dre over the weekdays while Tony went to work and was able to drink without abusing Dre as much. His mother had shortly crept her way back into the picture over the time span her sister was taking care of him. Tony has little communication with his baby mother and her side of the family. The only time they talked was during when they were making living arrangements for Dre. They settled on Tony having him on the weekends, his baby mother having him on weekdays. This decision came about when his son always ran away from home. Tony got tired of that shit. He’d rather his mother deal with that for 5 days straight while he only have to deal with his son for 2 days. It worked out in his favor, really. He could drink when he wants, focus on what he wants, and do what he wants without his kid slowing him down as much. Like I said, it works out.
"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love loves a memory no one can steal."
- from an irish headstone
She had money. She had wealth. She had the good looks. She had the body of a goddess. The lord could do no wrong with that.
But more importantly, she had the wealth. He met her at Rosie’s diner. He was just dropping in to get his daily morning coffee. He always need his caffeine in the morning before he sets off on his police adventures for the day. He saw her sitting alone and decided to take the friendly route to sit in her table for a small talk. It started off small, but the conversation became interesting to where the two began to talk deeper. This is when their friendship had started off. He asked her out for a date, and she accepted. At the time, she had a son she was raising al on her own after the death of her husband. He didn’t want any relationship with the son, but he did want a relationship out of her. When she disclosed that she was wealthy because she received all of the earnings from her dying husband, it was like music to his ears. He became more determined to give her the attention she needed. He praised her daily, brought her gifts, and did everything a girl would love for a potential love interest to do for them. The two started dating two months after several successful dates and constant talking over the phone. Their relationship was sailing off on a good note, though Tony was starting to cut back on giving her gifts and just sticking to praising her. He was slowly falling into his true ways, but not enough that it’ll mess up their relationship completely. He needed her for the money, that’s all. She lived in a big and better house than what Tony lived in. She had a heart of pure gold. She’d rather he lives with her than live in the house he was currently living in. Of course, Tony didn’t say “no”. He wanted to feel like a man with wealth. In order to get that, he had to upgrade from where he used to live and move in with her. This was also part of his plan to wear her down enough to propose and hopefully marry her soon.
When he moved in, he met her teenage son for the first time. The two butted heads because of their somewhat similar personalities. The son wanted to control the show in the absence of his father, Tony wanted control, period, because of his alpha male personality. There have been times the two came to blows during one of Tony’s drunken nights. Tony always become violent when he consumes enough alcohol in his system to make his brain go fuzzy and his fists go flying. On some occasions, Helena kept him grounded, and gave him a good distraction to keep him from drinking as much, even after a stressful day of work. Him and the rebel son had finally met amends with one another when they started cleaning up the attic together. Tony was in one of his decent moods to give the guy a chance, and soon realized he was almost similar to his own son in a way. He still didn’t care for the kid, but if he was going to be living with Helena, he needed to act like he gave a damn about her son to get what he wants.
Tony waited a year before he finally proposed to her. He wanted to wait until the time was right to do it. He proposed to her at Rosie’s diner, the same place the two met for the first time. When she accepted, he was kind of happy about it. Not the type of happy that he was getting closer to his goal of getting her wealth, but something else. With her keeping him grounded so much, it made him think about the times his mother kept his father grounded. His father’s personality was similar to his, minus the drinking. Did Helena have that type of effect on him? It made his mind wander. He thought she might be the one for him. He started to show less signs of being interest in the money and more sign of actually appreciating her more. He was… well, falling for her. He loved her.
But death had struck.
The death of Helena had taken him completely off guard. All of his work had went straight down the drain. The way he was starting to fall for her had come back and bit him straight in the ass. During her death, his son had disappeared and went off his own way, leaving Tony to stay in the house all by himself. He was all alone to drink away his sorrows and allow his constant depression to eat at him. The depression lasted for almost two months. After a month in it, he started to finally get back into the swing of working and trying to break free, but he’ll always have to take some time to drink when he gets the chance. He paid his son less attention around this time. He didn’t care what the boy did, as long as he didn’t get in the way whenever Tony was drinking or drowning in his depression. He still suffers from depression time-to-time. He mostly gets hit hard during the end of summer and early fall. Those are the times when Tony shuts down and finds himself confiding into alcohol to help him over the depression. Even up to this day, he still hasn’t gotten over her death. He doesn’t think he’ll ever find someone as perfect as she was. He doubts he'll find a girl alive that can keep him grounded the way she did. If you ask him, maybe he’s just meant to be single for the rest of his life.