ASHWICK VALLEY, CA
- "I have a love and hate relationship with this place. I didn't grow up here like a lot of people did, but it still means a lot to me."
Kaiden sighed. "My grandmother moved from the Bronx to come back to this place for a reason so obviously it was very special for her. I'm still trying to find that same relationship but I feel like I'm close."
She chuckled. "I'm a city girl at heart so I'm used to dealing with big shit, you know? But this town is mad small. It's different for me but I really feel like I'm starting to build a brand here and get foundation."
BRONX, NY - "I love the Bronx. I will always love the Bronx not just because I was born there but because of my family being there." Kaiden smiled at the mention of them. Even though, she had her differences with her family, she would always love them. "I grew up in this small ass house with my grandma, aunts, cousins, brother, and ma. That shit was the worst when I was growing up. I hated it there but as I grew older and my aunts started to move out, I started to miss that feeling. We had it rough, but it was still home for me. I feel like I'll never get those sounds and smells any place else. So that's why I loved the Bronx so much."
ATLANTA, GA - She rolled her eyes at the thought of the dreadful place. "I hated it there. I only went because my grandmother told me to keep an eye on my brother around my father. But I didn't want to go. Honestly, I don't know why Israel became so obsessed with a man that didn't give two shits about us. He left as soon as Izzy was born." Her feet started to tap rapidly as she thought about Atlanta. "But I stayed there until I believed that Izzy was old enough to raise himself. I left when I was eighteen and haven't been back. Don't plan to go back. Too many bad memories."
QUEBEC, CANADA Kaiden laughed loudly and her body wasn't allowing her to stop the laughter. She doubled over as the cackles continued to fall from her lips before she was finally able to pull herself together. "I'm laughing because it's so random when I think about it. Like how did I end up in Quebec? Well I was going through some rough shit. I lost my grandma and I wasn't thinking right anymore so I needed to go away from Ashwick and just anything that reminded me of her so I fled. I went to Quebec and it was one of the greatest experiences in my life. The culture is just so different over there. I fell in love but it just wasn't enough for me to stay. I still had a life in Ashwick that I needed to get back to."
- She chuckled. "My mother. My mother. More like a sister than anything else. I could sit here and blame her for me being so fucked up, but that's not fair. She wasn't ready to have me. But then again, I also ain't ask to be here. She could have just aborted me or some shit."
She chuckled. "Maybe she should have. It would have been better for her. But she went ahead and had me anyways. I love her because she's family but I also hate her. I always wanted to have that relationship that young girls are supposed to have with their mothers."
KENNEDI - Her heart fluttered once the name was mentioned. She could feel all of the heat transfer to her cheeks. "Kennedi was a girl I met while I was in Quebec. I really loved her because she helped me out of such a negative space. I met her when I was running from the death of my grandmother and she just got me back to where I needed to be." She said. "But you know how the saying goes, everything that glitter ain't gold or whatever. I found out she was married to some man and as much as she claimed that shit was over with, I didn't believe her so I broke it off. I haven't seen her since." She shrugged.
ROSE- She sighed as she bit her bottom lip to keep from crying. The wounds were still fresh for her even though it had been years. ”My grandma was my everything. She taught me everything I know about life.” She bit her bottom lip as she thought about the memories that they had. ”I really loved her because she was just so sweet and she looked out for me and my brother when my ma obviously didn’t give a shit about what we were doing. But unfortunately, she was also really fucking stubborn. I told her for many years that she needed to stop all that smoking but she never did and that cost her life. And I hate that shit. She was just someone who I thought would live forever.”
OMARI - “Oh God, I hate him. That man ruined me.” Her foot began to tap rapidly as she remembered Omari. She couldn’t even think about him without the anger boiling inside of her and ready to burst. Kaiden took a deep breath before she focused. ”I met him while I was in Atlanta. He was my get away from my father and at the time I was sixteen so I guess you could say, I was on some rebellion shit because he was one of my dad’s partners or whatever. He was young though, like eighteen. I swore that shit was love.” She shook her head. ”I thought it was but it was really toxic. We had many arguments where I would come out with bruises and him the same. I ended up pregnant by him….” She covered her face as she took a few deep breaths to rid the feeling that she had. ”Nobody knows this. But uh, it was a stillborn. It was so hard after the birth. I didn’t want the baby but it was still hard for me. I was really depressed and that’s another reason why I don’t like Atlanta.” She shrugged as she laughed nervously.
XAVIER- ”On everything I love, I hate him. With a passion. He’s a garbage excuse for a man. I don’t even want to call him my father because he was anything but. He left my mom with two kids to raise. I don’t give a fuck how old he was when it happened. She still sort of stayed so he should have as well. So when he took me and Izzy to Atlanta, I was so against that shit.” She chuckled as she hunched her shoulders. ”I just didn’t buy that ‘I wanna be a father now’ bullshit so we butted heads a lot. It was dumb arguments most of the time but I just thought he was trash. I still do. I was so glad when I went back to the Bronx. We haven’t talked since I left and I don’t plan on ever talking to him. He’s a weak excuse for a man.”
- She rubbed her lips together. "Well, when I was dealing with my grandma's death. I kind of turned to alcohol and it wasn't the amount that anybody should be drinking either. But vodka was my drink of choice. I was drinking that shit like water so I guess you could say I was an alcoholic."
She buried her face in the palm of her hands, feeling embarrassed. Kaiden looked up. "But I got through it by myself. When I moved to Quebec, I did my best to be clean. I stayed away from alcohol while I was out there."
NAILS - She couldn't stop the smile on her face no matter how hard Kaiden tried. "I love nails. I'm in love with art in general. I spend a lot of my time researching art. I can draw. I can sculpt a bit but I'm still kind of learning with that. But the thing that I've turned to the most were nails. I love the smell of nail polish. I love the look on people's faces when they see their nails. They always have the biggest smile. Eventually I want to open my own nail salon. I've actually been working towards doing so." The grin slowly faded from her face. "I tried getting a loan but it just didn't work out. The bank turned me down but I'm going to try again because I want my shit to be a franchise. I want to put nails on the map."